I've lost my chances to say how much I LOVE YOU when you've been taken away by my own best friend

Sometime I wished that i could sell my soul to the Devil himself, it just seems like what ever I do, I have no luck, no confidence, and undecided. I would sell my soul in exchange for a better life, or luck or confidence.

It's just like this, there is one girl, I could be barely know her, but what I love bout her is her smile and her laugh. The problem is she like/love my own best friend. Unfortunately, he (my best friend) is not into her, just take her as someone to be FB (fuck buddies), because he just broke up with his girlfriend/scandal. So he is taking her as a replacement to fulfill the empty slot of life.

Well bout the girl that I like, she doesn't even see the act. She was so blinded with looks, untill she didn't realize that she was being a fooled by my own best friend. I just couldn't stand to watch this because I have the feelings towards her and I know what kind a person my best friend is. I was too painful to see the other night when both of them was drunk. I wished that time I was blind, numb, just to bear the pain. It just not fair for this life 2006-ish till now. Love life is depends on looks, wealth, and car.

I just wished that I have the strength to say I in love with her, or maybe just say that I have crush on her earlier, so that maybe it could turn things around. I just wished....

Penat nak explain... biar lah dlm puitis... haha

Memang susah kalau dah suka. Setiap hari teringat si dia. Bila hilang tiba-tiba rasa nak bertanya. Seganlah pulak bila orang lain bertanya kenapa. Bila dah jumpa semula. Gembira hati rasanya. Nak bertegur dengan si dia. Takut pula dilupakan sahaja. Bila bertegur sapa. Si dia pula buat- buat tak layan pula. Pening rasanya kepala. Setiap masa bertanya kenapa. Apa salah silahnya. Berfikir seperti membuang masa. Tapi apakan daya kalau orang dah tak mahu memberi tahu kenapa. Membuat kita terpinga pinga. Sakit hati pun ada. Buat kita rasa separuh gila. Cuma diminta alasannya kenapa. Dengan harapan dia memberi peluang kedua. Harapan kedua cuma persahabatan semula. Kalau tak mahu memberi jawapan jujur tidak mengapa. Berilah tahu kepada kita beralaskan penipuan pun terima. Dengan rela pergi tak bertanya. Tak akan pandang semula buat kali kedua

This Is Me Read!

Im a guy that remember simple little things bout my frens, no matter who they are, i remember them. maybe not from name, but face i still do so.

Im a guy that see things in different way, by mean u said its nice i say it is not, coz its have its own sense of qualities.

Im a guy that live in a past, see in the past, remember things in the past, would like to move on but couldnt.. why.. coz there is something missing that i havent yet reach out or achieve.

Im a guy that need forgiveness and second chance, coz by GOD's name, i do learn my lesson by my mistakes that i made.

Im a guy that will said things truthfully, honest. the 1st thing that comes out of my mind. its a pain in the ass to hear my words. but thats what makes me different.

Im a guy that is said friendship is the most important in life. becoz, without them i might not be influence n not be who i am now.

I am weird coz i do act different. I am creepy coz i can remember little things. I am freak coz im both creepy and weird. SO? gladly to this is me and this is the only thing that makes me different than other people that most of my frens know. so, it might be pain, but then i take it as a compliment from whatever people will say to me.

ufoooooooO!!!

heh! i just finished watching supernatural season 5!!!! bapak kewl giler seyh... tak dpt eden nak luah kan perasaan.... tuh baru part 1... ada 8 episode! heh...

spoiler : Lucifer walks free from hell after Lilith death acting as the last cursed seal in order to free Lucifer. However Dean and Sam manage to escaped. Castiel is alive and become rebellious. Bobby was injured due to demon possessed and unable to walk. Turns out the reason Dean broke from hell and ressurected from death is because he is the chosen one to be Michael's (Archangel) vessel, while Sam is the chosen one to be Lucifer's vessel. There is a reason for both of them were chosen to be the vessel. It is because its as Michael is the obedient son of Him, and Lucifer is the rebellious son of Him, same as Dean which he obeyed his father wishes and order while Sam was previously a rebellious and also still rebel towards order. Another spoiler that really shocked me was; The Trickster (God of Tricks) turns out to be one of the archangel named Gabriel!...... this series will be continued till end of march i think... hahha... cant wait!!!!! wheeee!!!!

ahhh... 2010!

Finally 2010!!!! It's been like 4-6 months i haven't do anything on my blog. Been busy working, motorbike accident, hanging out with friends. *sigh*~. Let's see....... what is new for me... I've nothing new, same old same old... love life? barely spoken... Seems like its the same years before i've been through. Just the one that makes the differences is........ I'M GETTING OLDER! hahaha... well though its just nothing much to care..... haha... turra!!! will be continue!