I've lost my chances to say how much I LOVE YOU when you've been taken away by my own best friend

Sometime I wished that i could sell my soul to the Devil himself, it just seems like what ever I do, I have no luck, no confidence, and undecided. I would sell my soul in exchange for a better life, or luck or confidence.

It's just like this, there is one girl, I could be barely know her, but what I love bout her is her smile and her laugh. The problem is she like/love my own best friend. Unfortunately, he (my best friend) is not into her, just take her as someone to be FB (fuck buddies), because he just broke up with his girlfriend/scandal. So he is taking her as a replacement to fulfill the empty slot of life.

Well bout the girl that I like, she doesn't even see the act. She was so blinded with looks, untill she didn't realize that she was being a fooled by my own best friend. I just couldn't stand to watch this because I have the feelings towards her and I know what kind a person my best friend is. I was too painful to see the other night when both of them was drunk. I wished that time I was blind, numb, just to bear the pain. It just not fair for this life 2006-ish till now. Love life is depends on looks, wealth, and car.

I just wished that I have the strength to say I in love with her, or maybe just say that I have crush on her earlier, so that maybe it could turn things around. I just wished....